June 30, 2009
out of the hair, into the pocket
Last Saturday, Emman and I met his friends from his uni-daze for dinner. At the end of the gathering, one of his friends commented that they should meet up more often. I told her that she would have to take the initiative to organise to meet up, cos 'initiative' is one area that my bf is significantly lacking in. She seemed a tad surprised and told me that since I said so, she would believe me and organise gatherings more often. Just before we parted, she smiled and said she would keep in contact, now that she has my permission. I was a little taken aback. I didn't know anyone has to have my permission to ask my boyfriend out. And I sure didn't care that my friends did not have my bf's permission to ask me out. Maybe... I'm sure she was just kidding. 'Cos it never did occur to me to try not asking my friends out, no matter guy or gal, cos they are attached or married. If there is a baby (or babies) in the picture, then, 'yup'. I don't find the idea of entertaining babies while hanging out with my friends an appealing one. Keeping friends is important to me, with or without a relationship, and especially so when I'm in a relationship. It maintains my sanity, which has a higher tendency to be in a troubled state when there's another significant player in my life. Most importantly, while he's an excellent listener, Emman is not a very reciprocative bitching partner. I need to get my doses somewhere.xxxOver the past two months, met up with a number of friends. CJ, Shobana, Wenn, Apple, Anna, Ade, Karen, Miche, Trudy, Yixian, Chaw Su, DharmaJac (considered one entity), Sharifah... looking forward to meeting Shaohao, Eugene and the FVB Kyn in the coming week. And of cos, The Shameless Snow, tomorrow. My dad remarked to my mum that he's seeing less of me these days. He's definitely exaggerating. And the thing is, he's out most of the time while I'm home, cos he's driving his own cab now. I'm afraid he may be thinking of keeping me in his pocket. I'm afraid that's what Emman's been thinking of doing too. I'm so lucky, right? haha...
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 14:43
June 18, 2009
one of those conversations...
em: Where's the tong sampah...?me: Tong sampah? hehe You got it from the poster, right? "Mari bersihkan! Buang di tong sampah."em: Ya... but it's really called 'tong sampah'.me: Is it? Ok. But it's just funny to call it tong sampah. Imagine, a person, surnamed Tong. "Tong Sam Pah!" Like at the clinic, those nurses call out the name, "Mr Tong Sam Pah..."em: (LOL)me: Funny, right? Mr Tong Sam Pah... (LOL)
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 22:45
Demise of a yellow pencil
My yellow OMNI-Frozen mechanical pencil ran out of its course of scratching on paper this afternoon, after an accidental fall from the table. The head snapped. A quick and I assume, painless death. It had been with me for 13 long years. Our relationship runs way deeper than that with GQ, Desmond or Kay (and the in-betweens). It stood by me through uncountable boring college lectures, countless engaging university tutorials, plenty of brainstorming sessions at work in schools, equally plenty of exasperating tuition sessions, and more. But I'm not very upset about it. I take such 'endings' well. It's when I lose the things I have built a relationship with due to my carelessness, that I have to restrain myself from stamping my own feet. So... That's it then. Goodbye, my yellow pencil... Hello, pink OMNI-frozen! haha...
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 22:34
June 14, 2009
one of those conversations...
em: What's there in Kway Chap? All the pig stuff, unhealthy, right?
me: Hmm, not really ah... You know pig's skin... it's good for...
em: Making shoes.
me: Has lecithin E...? What did you say?
em: Making shoes.
me: ... I think our frequency is getting further and further apart.xxxem: But what shall we get for her (birthday)?me: Hmm... let's get her something cheap and funny. Like red bean or green bean soup.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 23:09
June 11, 2009
counting...
13 months. Or 7. Judging by the frequency and intensity of the rows, it should be the former. 18 months. That's the 'proven' acid test period. There is, can never be a textbook telling us how to pass this test. Perhaps, the only question is, "Do you want to pass? Or not?"
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 10:51
Thinking
When your partner starts to tell you that he's pissed with you, along with an exclamation mark, is it a kind of denial to see it as he has entered into a new and higher 'comfort level' emotionally with you? There must be a significant amount of trust within for anyone to state to the person they are pissed with, that they are pissed with him/her. Right? Same logic as why you would hold back from telling the uncle, who cut your queue, to sod off. Cos you don't trust that he does not have a parang hidden beneath his t-shirt and start chopping you into pieces. No? That's common sense? This is my first time. I have no common sense for this. But, I was told to think about how unsupportive and insensitive I've been. So, that's what I'm trying to do. Thinking...
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 10:42
June 07, 2009
one of those conversations...
me: What about me? What's charming?em: You are so qute.me: No, the specifics... Like, I think you are so charming when you play the guitar... You know... em: Ok. You are qute when you give your opinions... your thoughts...me: Is it? (suspicious... being opinionated is not cute...)em: Ya... I'd never have thought such thoughts exist. me: ... (?!?!) What do you mean by 'such thoughts exist'?!xxx(After waiting, restlessly, for 15 mins for the bank to open for Sunday Banking...)me: Yay! The bank is open! Capitalism is awake!em: That's what I meant (refer above).
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 16:22
Moving around
Wanna move around to other timings, move around to other work, move around to other places, move around to other income, move around to rest, move around to love, move around to meet the dreams...Every worthwhile journey starts with the most crappy and unglamourous step. Then... keep walking.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 16:03
the entrapment
Nope. Everything felt right and natural. Didn't feel like we just sliced a part of our monthly disposable income into a bottomless pit, or its like. It felt definite, certain and most importantly, affordable. haha...Committing to a short term entrapment to ensure a longer one. Some people call it 'The Future'. Whatever.
Other people remember anniversary date. We remember our entrapment date. U-so-niquely us!
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 15:59
the charmer
Yesterday, Emm and I met up with our friends, Dharma and Jac, to practise for an 'idol competition' to be held by their company this Friday. Emman strums the guitar (and does some weird facial effects) while Dharma sings. They are practising "Love is all around", "Yi ren yi ban" (from movie 881) and "Tong Hua". I think they make a great team on Wet3's sig song. So charming he looked, when he was strumming the guitar and singing the back-up, and showing some tongue. *hmm...I like gatherings of this kind. Music has a way of bringing people together, we all know. While they were going 'masuk E, masuk G...", Jac and I were listening and giving constructive feedback, where possible. I believe all of us had a good evening in the viewing room last night. Winning or not, it's not that important. Especially if the prize is gonna be Kinder Bueno x3. But I really look forward to seeing the Dhar-emman duet!
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 15:50
Also in this eden
Even before
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